Welcome to Mindfulness for a Messy Life!

First the “Messy"

As any well-worn seeker, I’ve spent my share of time, energy, and resources (both the internal and hard-cash varieties), in search of the ‘one thing’ that would fix all the brokenness, and neaten all the messiness of my life. As you may have guessed, I didn’t find it. As it turns out (surprise, surprise!) there is no one single answer to life’s many complex questions, nor is there a healer, guru, religious dogma or spiritual leader (however inspired and inspiring) that can offer a viable antidote to the trials and tribulations of the human experience. It is fortunate then, that we are possessed (I believe) of the skills necessary to elevate what we can’t fix, learn where we can’t heal, and make meaning, even where we can’t make sense.

And Now the Mindful

Mindful. The word itself feels like a mini mantra to me, as though its very utterance gently nudges you a smidge closer to that oh-so-elusive but wildly delicious present moment. But what is mindfulness really? Here goes my definition:

The gentle resting of our attention on what's happening within and around us, without judgment, attachment, denial, or disregard. It is state in which we're both alert and receptive, able to observe our thoughts, emotions, sensations, and experiences without reacting to them, feeding them into a narrative or storyline, or attributing any particular meaning to them. 

Well that's just yummy.

But what happens when the thoughts presently running around your head a toxic, tangled mess? When your emotions have taken over the reigns and are pulling you in every which direction? When your body seems to be at war with your mind?

Conventional mindfulness says "stay present-tense"

'Messy-life' mindfulness says "not necessarily!"

While some may argue that the present is where it's at, regardless of your mental or emotional state, I say it only becomes a prime destination when it's a healthy hospitable place to be.

As you might have guessed, mindfulness practices are exercises designed to cultivate an awareness of the aforementioned present moment. Consistent here-and-nowness can be tough though even for the most well-balanced amongst us; for those of us with a mental health challenge or two, it can be near impossible to sustain. And, the simple fact is, some of us don't want to be up close and personal with the present all the time. It can be dang unpleasant if not downright scary!

I mean, have you ever tried sitting still for twenty minutes while your gut is twisted up in knots of aching despair? How about paying close attention to the frantic pounding of your heart during a ten-minute panic attack? Perhaps you've attempted to watch as your hand goes round and round a dirty dish as suggested by a mindfulness expert when all you wanted to do was crawl into a hole?

Now I believe wholeheartedly in the transformational potential of being present. It can absolutely increase our tolerance for discomfort and our ability to skillfully manage life’s ups and downs. But, our awareness—wherever it’s focused—is only as good as the foundation it’s built on.

If, for instance, we are continually “aware” of painful emotions but show ourselves no compassion, then what good is our awareness? If we’re aware of negative thoughts about ourselves but don’t believe we can change them, then again, how does that help us? And if we’re aware of something that triggers our anxiety but have no tools to mitigate it..once again, awareness alone falls short.

Conventional mindfulness says “sit with the hard stuff"

'Messy-life' mindfulness says "you may want to dance instead"

For those of us struggling with our mental health, this can be grueling and exhausting, even detrimental. If you suffer with PTSD for instance, “sitting with” acute distress can be re-traumatizing and leave you only more deeply enmeshed with your pain. In fact there are times we are far better off dancing, singing, or running with our pain than 'sitting' with it. And there are other therapeutic tools that may prove more healing than our present-moment awareness: EMDR, yoga, Neurofeedback, EFT Tapping, to name a few.

Ultimately, I think we’ve first got to figure out how to recognize and tame our demons so that when we reach the present, it’s a both a safe space, and a place we actually want to be. This is mindfulness that encourages emotional awareness and acceptance in just the right dose to facilitate healing without the potential for harm. No one knows more about this than the author of Trauma Sensitive Mindfulness David Treleavan, PhD so check him out!

Conventional mindfulness says "the past is not your friend" 

'Messy-life' mindfulness says "the past offers critical clues" 

I'm guessing that most of us love/hate our past in equal measure–our trips down memory lane alternating between delightful and torturous. But few could argue that the past is an information-packed storage house–a little 'mindful' excavation of which can help us get some serious intel about our inner workings. I mean what better place to venture in search of the source of negative core beliefs or emotional triggers? Where better to find evidence of our strengths and capabilities (and who couldn't use a reminder of those?!). And of course all those juicy insights and 'aha's' can be put to mighty good use as we work to inform and upgrade our life choices.

Conventional mindfulness says "the future is a distraction" 

'Messy-life' mindfulness says "sometimes we need a little distraction!" 

I will always vote for some time spent focusing on the future. Why? Because it can give us direction and inspire us to action. Framing the future as a motivational tool, we can recognize the power of thoughtful, well-informed goals to pull us out of dark places and set us on a more productive path. And luxuriating in our fantasy future affirms the best of what’s possible while building up a storage of healthy, constructive thoughts and good-feeling emotions. And we do love those

So yes, I support present moment awareness and all the practices that promote it AND, I say that that is ideally only a part of a much more comprehensive approach that supports our mental wellness from every angle.